Been five months!

It’s been close to five months since I last posted something here. Here’s a little summary of what I’ve been up to:

I was unemployed for one month plus. It was nice. I got to wake up at 10 every morning, went to popular brunch spots on on weekdays when tables would be easy to find, read a lot, play Cities: Skylines for hours on long, reconnect with some old friends, spent more time with my parents, met someone special 3 months ago, and of course, travelled spontaneously.

But after a while, I got bored and found myself in need of a larger sense of purpose, so I cut short my break and began job hunting. A couple of weeks into my hunt, I received a decent offer in a PR consulting firm, so I, with no formal PR experience to boot, took the leap of faith and jumped in. Began my new gig in July, and it’s been two eventful months ever since. I must say that I enjoy this job as it involves a lot of writing and public engagement; I love people, so I have no complaint about doing the latter. There are stressful periods, however, and life in the agency isn’t as glamorous as a lot of people think. It involves long hours and a lot of patience, as you have to deal with some really tough nuts to crack sometimes. Challenges notwithstanding, I can see myself being comfortable being in this industry in the long run.

On my travels, I managed to cover a number of places, some of which I had never been to previously. Here’s a map of where I’ve been to since April:

Places I've been to since April

I plan to write about some of my these cities in my subsequent posts. Stay tuned!

Speak soon,

FH

An Ode to The Good 9 Years

With the stroke of a pen, I officially ended a chapter in my life today.

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I signed my voluntary separation package with PETRONAS into effect today. The terms and conditions stipulated in the agreement are private & confidential, so I won’t tread further upon this matter, but I am receiving a generous amount of severance payment that can sustain me for quite some time as I figure out the next step to take in my life.

My last day in the company will be on April 30th; by which point I will have served the organisation for 3 years 10 months. My attachment with PETRONAS goes a long way back before I started working with the company, though. I received their education sponsorship (more like a convertible loan, actually) when I was 17, straight after taking my SPM examination, a few months before the result for the said exam was even released (I applied using my trial result). From that point onwards, I always had, at the back of my head, the thought that someday along the line I would serve the company- what other options were there for me anyway, since I was bonded to their scholarship contract. While the certainty was somewhat comforting, it also shut me out of other opportunities elsewhere.

While there were times when I felt that having a company decide on my life’s trajectory (Which subject to take for IB? Which university should I enroll to? Which job within the organisation should I take?) from such an early age was stifling, my sense of gratitude for the opportunities that PETRONAS provided me with remains. Being born into a middle class family (we’ve always been fairly comfortable, but no, we’re not wealthy), an overseas education would have surely put a large dent into my parents’ finances; PETRONAS’  sponsorship allowed me to bypass this hurdle & enabled me to focus on realising my academic potential in Melbourne.

Quitting the company effectively puts an end to my 9-year ties with PETRONAS, and I am leaving with no bitterness indeed. I feel thankful that they have done a lot to ensure my academic & career growth, and it’s high time for me to start exploring for other opportunities out there. I am a believer in the very concept of rezeki, there must be something out there for me, I just need to have the drive & savvy to find & retrieve it. As for now, I have started sending out some CVs to several companies, most of them to apply for jobs that I feel will better reflect my passion. I’m looking into some opportunities in the advisory/consultancy field too. I’ve also been busy preparing some important documents to support my master application; I have always thought of furthering my studies anyway, and this is probably a good time for me to do that.

I’m also starting to be active on LinkedIn too.

My priority right now is to work on something that will give me personal satisfaction; I understand that no job is perfect, but it feels more rewarding staying late in the office & going through all the troubles & stress when you know that you are doing something that you really love & can closely relate with.

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I look forward to the future with my mind positive and my soul filled with gratitude. I know eventually, somewhere along the line, I’ll find something that grooves better with my soul. Wish me luck on this.

It’s also time for me to start planning for my backpacking adventure; I’ll have plenty of time at hand to do that now!

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Speak soon,

Faizal Hamssin

Hello, World

Hello, World.

It’s been close to four years since I last posted anything on this website. So much has happened over the past four years; the 20s is recognised by many as the period of growth, the formative years during which we learn better about ourselves, our life aspirations, our inherent nature and inclinations, and our passions, among other things. It’s a transformative period to some, but to me, I believe that the 20s is the period of self-discovery. I haven’t changed, I simply know myself better everyday, and my changing outlook on life may reflect this. I am myself, and myself values transiency.

Just me, exploring the scorching Sinai desert, Sept 2015.
Just me, exploring the scorching Sinai desert, Sept 2015.

Over the past four years I have been working for the same organisation, doing something that I neither dread nor passionately love, but this is coming to an end end of this month as I have decided to take that leap of faith to step out of my current industry to explore something that I hope will groove better with my soul (I’ll talk more about this in a future post). I have met some amazing people who have become part of my support system (as much as I have become theirs), fallen in and out of love, travelled to many places across four different continents, tasted food I never tasted prior (reindeer sauce, anyone?), read books on topics I would rather shun or not think about back in 2012, recalibrated my expectations on issues from politics to romance, and more. I also decided to utilise social media, namely Twitter, as a means of expressing myself via @faizalhamssin.

I have also grown to accept who I am, fully. In that regard, I am at peace. After all, acceptance is within.

Speak soon.

Faizal Hamssin

The New Beginning

Hello folks,

Well, while this isn’t the first blog post that I’ve ever written, this post should mark a whole new beginning for me- in a sense, it is. I used to blog rather regularly until the sudden loss of my blogging mojo culminated into a long hiatus; my previous blog is now officially dead with this new blog taking its place.

Why a new blog?

Well, I think my previous blog, started when I was in my teens, doesn’t really reflect who I am at this point- while I still find enjoyment in ranting (well, this blog’s url I believe is self-explanatory), I find myself to have evolved and grown as a person. Some of the more immature posts that were the feature of my previous blog don’t really bode well with the aim I have set for this blog to achieve- I want this blog to be not only a vanity project (read: personal diary or journal), but to serve a greater purpose. No more immature posts, I hope.

I hope this is a good start. I’m not as optimistic as Qin Shi Huang, who predicted that his fledgling empire would endure for “ten thousand generations“, but I do hope that this blog (I won’t say ’empire’) will stay relevant for you and me for a long time.

Cheers,
Faizal Hamssin