I personally think that the first five minutes after waking up is the most important part of my day.
Sometimes I wake up groggy after a long night, sometimes fresh and well-rested after a nice, deep sleep.
Sometimes I feel like a wreck.
But through it all, beneath the veneer of temporal feeling of grogginess or lapses of energetic feeling coming from having enough rest, one thing remains.
When I’m in a content phase, I have so much optimism over how my day will go.
When I’m content, I find a strong sense of purpose. I look forward to starting the day, no matter how sleep-deprived I am.
I might feel like a wreck, but I know things will get better. So I look forward to starting my day still.
That is why whenever I’m unsure of the state of life I am in at a particular moment, I’ll try go back to think of what I felt when I first started my day.
Because there were times when I felt disillusioned every morning.
There were times when I had to drag myself out of bed; to a job that I had to learn to tolerate. To face an inconsiderate boss that didn’t believe in me and my potential.
No matter how well-rested I was at that time, no matter how plush the bed I slept on; I woke up dreading to start the day.
I did not feel damn good in the morning, no matter how great the previous day was for me.
In retrospect, I think I was quite miserable.
So next time when you feel like you’re unsure if you’re doing the right thing with your life; try to think of how you started your day.
Did you dread it? Did you have to drag yourself out of home?
If you did, and it persisted, know that the time is probably right for a change. Get rid of the toxic elements that make your life miserable. Leave what dragged you down behind. Even if that means having slightly less money in the bank or less friends to call out for coffee with.
Start afresh, if you need to.
Nothing is worth feeling miserable every morning.